Hi there
I spent yesterday in a panic and had a very sleepless night worrying about the cancer scare with the result that I called the surgery this morning and insisted on being seen today. I’m glad I did as the initial examination was good with nothing untoward being found. Doc was careful to point out though that although this was good news I still had to see a gynaecologist as he could only give me a basic examination. Well I don’t mess around, I have the appointment for 6.30pm tomorrow taking full advantage of the private medical insurance Richard has with his job. I do feel a lot happier though.
I have to say, this should be a lesson to us all with chronic illnesses. When I first became ill I was under the care of Dr DG Smith (the best specialist I have ever had) and he told me the story of a man who had been diagnosed with ME. Anyhow, this man’s health got steadily worse and worse and worried about it he consulted his GP who kept attributing it to his ME. Upshot is, he got a very late diagnosis of bowel cancer and died.
I am not trying to blame my GP here, I think the fault lies more with me for attributing my symptoms to ME/Fibro and also my doctors surgery is so busy they most of the time insist that you only talk about one problem at a time when you go there. I always had more pressing problems I wanted to talk about so the abnormal bleeding always went on the back burner.
This time I wanted to mention it as other people had told me it was important but I also had other things I wanted to mention so when I got there I was blurting everything out as quickly as I could so I couldn’t be told ‘enough, one thing only’! I have a new doctor at the surgery though and he is very nice, I feel more confident about going there now.
Okay, my point is, if you have symptoms that are new or worse or are worrying you, don’t put them down to your chronic illness, insist the doctor gives you tests and examines you. It could be something else and you could leave it too late. I still don’t know how this story is going to end with me but I could have had a lucky escape, we shall see.
On other news, I still haven’t had any diet coke but the headache is still there but then again I didn’t have much sleep last night. Not too brilliant on the diet today, I did succumb to some chocolate but they have been trying times….
I’m cooking some comfort food tonight Dublin Coddle with Irish vegan sausages and Cornbread Nothing unhealthy but comforting, just the thing to eat whilst wearing my new soft cuddly nightshirts I bought yesterday in a fit of therapeutic retail therapy J
One last thing, Amazon keep saying Richards book is out of stock but it isn’t. I think it is something to do with print on demand. It is being sent out to the people who are ordering it, so get yours today! J
Jun 30, 2011 @ 20:38:47
Debbie why are you being so hard on yourself? Each day is different and we have different issues to deal with. On a good day we can eat properly and do all the things we are supposed to do. When we have a bad day we can be a little flexible, do things that make us feel better, a little treat [ Not Cola] whatever makes you feel a little better. Don’t feel guilty if you have a little chocolate. You are going through a MOST stressful time and you need to be very nice to yourself. It’s wonderful that your initial examination is positive, take each positive bit of news and write it down as many times as you can, it takes a while to believe it. I have posted on FB many times do not put everything down to CMT and in your case ME. We still get other things. DO NOT worry about telling your Doctor, that is his/her job, that is what they are there for, that is what they get paid for. This lecture is because I care and feel you need some support to help you through. I know how it feels to go through what you are going through and I got through it by friends support and believing I was going to be ok.